I finally realized.,.......saak.asdas..,./;'[']\lksvslkc..yyyyyy uurrr ttttooouuucccchhhh

i just keep thinking about all the people who are going to miss me. it always surprises me the amount of people who are fond of me and are sad to see me go. BUT i can't die not knowing what else is out there. I'm scared, and I'm afraid this all is going to fail. but I have to do it. I WAS thinking about how I came to this desiciion, I had been thining about it for a while but never acted on it. then.....it happened,,,, and I realized I have to, I can't over think it. I can't just sit here. I have to do it. I have to have adventure. I need out of here even if it proves my doom,
I am leavig a lot. including some really cool friends and a job that JUST KEEP FUCKING GIVING!!! fuck it. I'm fucking this all up. i'm out of here.


no one made anything of themselves from akron by staying here....no one......and a lot of people are from akron......fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck,,,,,,,,,fuck you for missing me!

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Some may come and some may go

I don't think I have been as excited to leave a place and as sad to see it go as I am now. NE Ohio is a different sort of place. with pockets of success. But never thriving. there is a lot i am unsure of right now. but i know that as much as I am sad to see this place fade way, i'm so excited to get he hell out of here.

i saw the wrestler tonight ( another reason to get out of here, this movie came out weeks ago in austin, and just tonight in the cleve). i think it was a really good movie to see while in this state of mind.......

jumping into the ring might kill me. but it's where I belong.

Under a million feet of snow

It's snowing quite heavily. I will miss this. Adventure.

I didn't realize

The Fear

My biggest fear is that I will leave and something will happen to my mom, my dad, my sisters, my family and I won't be here.......I spent all today with my dad at the hospital. He has some sort of vascular rupture in his abdomen. He should be ok. He's superman right? Crazy guy popped a vein doing his 100 crunches. He kept trying to tell the nurses this was probably the cuase but they didn't believe him. I wouldn't either especially because he was telling them his also did 50 pull ups and 100 push ups. Then I came in and they said "You're dad is quite a man, says he can do 100 crunches..." my reply "..He can, yeah, that's probably what caused it..." (BLANK STARE)........"Seriously, he can" (WIDE EYES)............."Well......hmm....yeah I guess that would do it."

It was one of the proudest moments (who has a dad that at 75 can kick anyone's ass) and scariest (he's not invincible no matter how much he trains).

Waking Up as the Sun Greets the Dawn

I'm not comin' home

I've just returned from my 7 day exploration of my new home Austin. I was scared (and sick but that's unrelated) when I arrived in Austin New Years day. I wanted my first day, my first time, in Austin to be new years day.

My immediate arrival provided the first of MANY surprises. $50 off my car rental because I had to wait 10 minutes. Little did I know it an illness that would follow me through the entire week was brewing.

As I headed towards the city I noticed a a guy biking on what I assume was the highway.....this is Austin. Nothing but bunch of bike riders, hipsters, and college kids. Sometimes a good thing sometimes a bad thing.

The week was filled with tacos, movies, and sun. Not too unlike how I spend most of my days in Ohio. It also presented me with my first flat bike tire. Very flat. And a subsequent 3 mile walk as the sun began to creep behind the hills.

I was slightly to painfully sick most if not...well ALL the time I was there. I'm just now kinda getting over it though I think i might be getting pink eye. Either way it made the experience interesting and if I can have a good time when I'm that sick, it's got to be pretty cool.

I could try to go through all the cool things i did (Escape from NY and Howling II (with personal appearance by Sybal Danning). Tell you about all the cool taco places I found (soy chorizo everywhere, and a taco every morning-one of which was 3/4 lbs.) And some of the weirdos (bum dancing his heart out for a good 4 minutes, and a really GOOD dancer at that, I'm not big on giving out money to bums but this dude would have gotten a fiver, and a $5ver). But I am sure a lot of this stuff is going to come as I begin living life in my new city.

I should mention that I am going to miss.....a lot of people. And I know I'll be missed. I'm sorry I am leaving. You're all really important to me. It's weird. I really wish I could have it all. But something has to give. And for so many reasons I'm just not happy where I am. Will this solve everything? Probably not. WIll I most likely be a lot poorer...probably. But I'm hoping at least I'm happier.

SO it begins. I hope to see a lot of you come check this place out. Also Steve Jobs did invent iChat sooo.......Come down sometime and I'll challenge you to Mortal Kombat II. Or discuss life under the night sky at any one of a 100 sweet bars....kinda. Ok the city sucks, but so does the cold, cuz it's a cold night for alligators.


Two headed dog